Day 4- - Ya I know I missed a day. Sorry

So my life has been pretty damn hectic lately. With the baby on the way and everything else it's been kinda hard to keep up on my blogging but I promise I will do my best to keep everything up to date. So on my last blog I asked for my readers to give me some questions, something that you might want to know about me or my life, so get at it. Drop me a line, I made it easy for you by placing a spot on the side of my page to leave a question or even just leave me a comment directly under my blog. I would just like to know what it is that you would like to hear about. So anyway back to my craziness, my woman and I really want to know how far along she is and in order to do that we have to get an ultrasound. Well those ultrasounds are not cheap. So now we have to apply for a coupon through DSHS that way its payed for by the state. I'm a prideful person and hate to ask for help but in my current situation I need that help, I pay my taxes so what the hell. Also I'm unemployed at the moment at least I receive unemployment but that's nothing compared to what I made before, I was " laid off" from my last job which was the best job I've had in my life and I plan to go back and speak with my old supervisor to see if I just might be able to get my job back. I worked for a company called King Extrusions, and I was a line attendant working on being trained to become a full blown operator. I pretty much already did all the operators responsibility's but the deference is the pay and the title. I had excellent pay great benefits and hardcore hours. I work 12hr days, my schedule is 5days on 5days off, 2days on then 2days off. So it feels like I had a 5 day vacation every other week. The other weird thing is that we would work for 2 months on the day schedule 7Am to 7pm and then switch to night schedule 7pm to 7am. Kinda hard to get used to at first but I loved it. Plus we had payed holidays and a lot of other perks. Enough about that, I just ask that YOU as my readers pray or just put out some positive thoughts that I get this job back! I thank you in advance. So another crazy thing that happened to me yesterday, my girlfriend was going to check the mail, the next thing I hear was her screaming for me, scared the hell out of me because of course I'm thinking the worst. So I run out there only to find that there was this poor little squirrel lying there half dead. The poor guys back leg was bleeding and his tail was mangled. It looked like a dog got a hold of it. So I made a phone call and asked some animal control type people to come pick him up and take care of him. They told me to try to wrap him in a towel and keep him warm in a box or something.... Ha, ya right, catch a wild squirrel that's hurt, but me being the animal lover I am I gave it a try. Well the little bugger didn't want to be caught so he chose to run, he made it under a bush so I tried reaching under there and off he went again this time under the neighbors fence. Well when I jumped the fence I landed on a bunch of debris and either broke or twisted my ankle and I lost the little guy. Damn that sucked, I go to help this poor thing with a hurt leg and only end up hurting my leg! LOL So on a serious note another thing you guys don't know about me is that I have been fighting this nasty custody battle to keep my son. I'm not fighting with my baby's mother I'm fighting her Grandparents. You see they hate me, and I do mean hate me. Why I don't know, I never did anything to them to deserve what I've been through. They called CPS on me less than a year after my son was born making all sorts of allegations like I was driving around drunk with him, selling drugs with him around, leaving him in a crib crying all day and the big one was saying that I was taking Oxycontin (that's another story I'll get into later). All bullshit and lies, anybody who knows me knows that my son is my life I would never do anything to hurt him!! So the short version for now is that I received a call from a CPS caseworker telling me that if I didn't go down and take a drug and alcohol assessment they would take my child. At the time I did smoke pot, never around my son and not to make lite of things but come on POT, not the worst drug in the world. So I went right on down and took their test knowing full well I wouldn't pass the THC part and I even told them that, they said oh don't worry everything will be fine. Come to find out I was tricked from the get, I didn't have to take that test until it was court ordered and by that time it would have been clean and I would not be going threw all of this shit that I have. On the flip side it's been a blessing in disguise because it's made me a better person and I've learned alot. It's kept me from completely going over the edge. Okay so the messed up thing is after they found my dirty U.A. and started forcing me to do all these things like parenting assessments and parenting classes and whatever else. Treatment was the big one and that did me a lot more bad then good. While I was in treatment I had to do random U.A.'s and I found out that if I took these Oxycontin pills they were out of my system in like 2 days tops. So Right after I took a U.A. I would take a pill and there you have it, the system helped turn me from a pothead into a freaking pill junkie. It took along time for everything to progress but believe me it did. Within years I lost EVERYTHING, including things you can't get back like dead friends, family and such! I have been through sooooo much shit in my life, so much suffering, so much hurt, so much pain and I really hope that with everything I've been through I can help somebody out there even just ONE person! So this is the hard part for me, here I am trying to fight to keep my parental rights and get my son back home with whom he belongs and now here comes another baby in my life. I KNOW in my heart that I am a GREAT father, I've messed up, made bad choices but who hasn't. Nothing I've done has been bad enough to take my son from me. I really wanted to have custody of my son before having another one but GOD has a different plan for me. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. The question is always "What" is that reason. So now that I've bared my heart and soul I hope YOU my readers haven't judged me quit yet. There is still a lot more for you to learn. It's truly scary to put all this out there for the world to read when most of this I don't even talk about with the people closest to me! Again thanks for taking time from your life to read about mine! To be continued....